tinkin..tinkin..tinkin

haiiz...i chat wif clar juz now...hmmm...chat wif her wil tink of eileen..wtf...tinkin of eileen's care 4 mii...tinkin of her promises..

promise 1: don wanna leave mii
promise 2: watch sun-rise together
promise 3: nv use break on each other
promise 4: stay by my side 4eva
promise 5: gt married in 10 yrs time
promise 6: everi mthly anniversay go out together
promise 7: share probs n happiness together
promise 8: tak care of each other wen sick
promise 9: accompany each other wen lonely
promise 10: to love mii eternity

haiiz...those promises r empty promises...but now i can only promise her to 4gt all those memories abt us...i cant do tt in a few days..i don no wat to do now...ish a confused...i stil love u..i stil miss u..i stil tink of u everitime..i stil wanna takcare of u wen u were sick everitime..i stil wanna accompany u wen u r lonely..wen u r sad..i still wanna chat wif u everiday to no u betta..i stil care of u bcuz i reali love u..sumtimes i wanna force myself to dislik u..but i juz cant..haiiz..i can b happii external but in my fragile hart..i m sad..i don no how to control my emotions..i wanna love u juz litat...juz let mii b..i seriously nd a counseller..i lik counsellin ppl but y cant i do as example wen i counsel ppl?..i regretted of the past i did..i didnt care of u much..i cant b a prefect stead 4 u..sumtimes i wonder if u chosen mii as the rite stead?..we haf a moment of happiiness of the time frm 5th of sept to 14 feb..but i wanna last long..y cant we?...i don no whether did u regretted bein wif mii wen we haf soo much hardship in this relationship..this ish ur 1st relationship n i mak it soo sad 4 u...srry 4 wat i did..i juz say i cant b a prefect stead 4 u..hope u wil find a betta person den mii..hope u can find a person tt can takcare of u n console u wen u sad..

hmmm...i gotten a b.day present 4 u..hope tt present ish the indication of our relationship start n end..